Yesterday was nuts!!! I spent over 3 hours on buses — or waiting for them — to get to a place that normally takes 1 hour. Of course, one interim stop and several goof-ups on my part played into that time extension. But what came of the whole thing was this feeling that nothing was going as planned.
That left me with only one option — get present in the moment and focus on things I appreciate!
For example, I went to go open a new post office box at one of those private box places — not the post office itself. Well due to some details I was not aware of, I couldn’t open one. At first this confused and fumed me a bit. But when I got into the moment I was excited about having been saved rom spending $50 that morning.
Going with the flow, being present to the moment and finding what I in-joyed played out in other ways yesterday too.
By the time I reached my final destination my mood was better mostly, despite being 2 hours late! But within another hour or so, my friend showed up to buy some of my CDs and that went quite well.
So by the time she left, I was up $80 from my planned day that morning — made $30 and saved $50! Hahaha!
And here’s the really cool thing….the biggest thing that I got present to, that helped me relax as I was moving through my day:
That nothing was going wrong!
See, dropping into the feeling and knowing that everything is unfolding perfectly for the greatest good of all involved is SOOOO very freeing. Anything else is a judgement coming from lack, insufficiency, problem-thinking or whatever you wanna call it.
Thinka about it!!!
How do you feel when you judge yourself or get upset with a delay as I had yesterday?
What if that delay was orchestrated by the Universe so that you’d meet the exact right person at the exact right time and place?
What if your delay gave someone else — someone you’re meeting — the time to complete something that was vital for their day. Or gave them time to nurture themselves?
I enjoy remember that nothing as gone wrong and that the Universe is perfectly coordinating everything in my life, for everyone I am involved with on any given day.
Can you be present to this deep faith? Can you let got of your judgements, your needs to fix or control or “heal” yourself and your life?
When you do, you’re left in deep unknowing. And this is really scary!!!
And thus….why this requires presence in the moment. This is channeling Love.
Yesterday morning I awoke fresh and eager for the day with a very interesting thought first in my mind.
“I can now move forward.”
I had had a dream in which much was revealed to me. For one, it was revealed that my true message to the world, the message I was born to remind people of is that there is only Love. It was also revealed that all of last year I was supposed to be deeply exploring the nature of Abundance and transforming my own beliefs and concepts around it in order to gain access to a higher connection and awareness of this message that there is only Love.
I had to walk through the trials and joys of last year to get here….to get to what my message really is.
See in all my observations about the essential nature of Abundance last year, I learned one important thing — feeling abundant, seeing Abundance, tapping into the flow of the inherent abundance of life is an expression of Love.
In fact in all my work with individuals, I call their being and minds to remember and thus find the most abundant, loving, best-feeling perspective on whatever topic they are focused on. Truth be told, that’s not so much about Abundance as it is Love.
In recent months I’ve been aware that my message has been shifting. I became aware the talking about the Art of Appreciation was increasingly important to me. That this one tool — Appreciation — is the most powerful tool I’ve ever encountered or used, and that feeling the Abundance is a result of using this tool.
And thanks for many teachings of Abraham-Hicks, I know that Appreciation and Love are akin vibrationally. So it’s no duh that my message is about Love. And yes, Abundance is wonderfully part of that.
The statement There Is Only Love is a very powerful one.
It means there’s no fear. No lack. No loss. No pain except what we create. It means that everything we see, experience, attract, encounter, touch, taste, feel and smell is comprised of only Love.
And as far as my being a channel, I’m not a channel for Abundance. I am a channel of Love; of the reminders that we are all Love, that our experiences can be of Love and Appreciation and that the joy of life, the freedom inherent in our very beings, all comes from this basis of Love.
We were born from the energy of Love. We return to the energy of Love. So why not experience the most Love this lifetime?
And with this, I can now move forward.
Still don’t know what it looks like to move forward, but I am LOVING this newly revealed old piece to the puzzle! 
So Tuesday morning I had another profound dream. A stunning blonde with bright, beautiful blue eyes and an incredible presence was in my dream. She was very present. Very available. And even flirty in a playful and sexy way. It was easy to hold eye contact. Easy to flirt back, talk to her, approach her. I don’t remember everything that happened, but at the end I was asking if she was with another guy who was in the dream and she stopped me mid-sentence saying “I’m all yours”. In that moment I knew her as my beloved.
I awoke thinking “Oh wow, I’m going somewhere!” which of course makes absolutely no sense to me.
Within an hour though, I was suddenly inspired to do the next wave of purging my belongings — the final purge of any excess files I had in an attempt to get them neatly and succinctly into one of my three remaining bags. Yes a year ago I had a Mini Cooper Convertible full to the soft top of all my belongings. And now I am down to one large suitcase, a shoulder carry on and a briefcase bag. 3 bags.
After a focused, productive hour or two, I had purged the extra 4-5 inches of files and was down to a stack that neatly fit right where I wanted them to in the carrying-on shoulder bag. Once I sell or donate my remaining CDs, I’m now ready to move.
But there’s more. That feeling of “going somewhere” continued and by nightfall I found myself in YouTube video land instead of my video game.
A series of interesting “coincidences” lead me to some new videos from a favorite a cappella group of mine called Perpetuum Jazzile (from Slovenia I believe) which instilled in me such a deep desire to sing again that I went searching for local a cappella groups in the LA area.
Well I found a boat load of stuff. Groups looking for new members. An actual a cappella festival happening this coming Saturday night and that my best friend knows a main member of one of the groups looking for new singers.
Coincidence? Manifestation? I don’t know! But I’m ready to sing again….and sing a cappella. I’m going to the gig on Saturday night and I’ll work whatever connections the Universe provides (my friend’s friend perhaps?) and we’ll see what unfolds from this.
Interesting ”somewhere” eh? Hahahaha!
How long has it been now? Months maybe since I first had the idea to start making videos of my story? I remember Dr. Peebles telling me that the idea wasn’t necessarily a directive to go do it, but more of an opening to the unlimited possibilities.
Then in January he reminds me to keep writing and keeping my blog going. Admittedly I had laxed of on it, mostly out of just focusing on something else. But at that time in January he also mentioned video. It was sort of a passing comment.
In December I attempted to make a few videos. I sort of dismissed the two that I made. Various flaws with them and (to be honest) fears on my part.
So I watched what I had done in December. To my amazement, despite being unshaven, unshowered and exhausted, and initially uncomfortable and awkward, I saw myself actually channeling….actuallly sharing the messages I want to share with the world.
The video above is Part 1 of 2 of the beginning of this journey into sharing my story on video. Enjoy. Expect more.
Last night I had an interesting dream. It was full of beautiful ocean scenes and lovely, kind people. Toward the end I had this rushing, roller coaster “tug on your stomach” feeling and I awoke with the words “del mar” on my lips.
It was a very happy, wonderful feeling.
And I realized, how vitally important it is for me to live “del mar” — or by the sea.
The last few weeks have been minorly stressful as I have been aware that my time here in Korea Town is quickly coming to an end. I’ve been reducing my belongings to match that transition and make it as smooth and mobile as possible. But I’ve also been carrying a slight undercurrent of stress or anxiety too. Today I sit, feeling clear and free, in appreciation for the contrast of the last few weeks.
My clarity started coming to me the last Saturday when I visited the beach for the first time in many weeks. It was such a joy to be there, to see my dear friend the ocean, to walk along the sand and feel the fresh ocean air. While I was there I remembered something quite profound.
In younger years I was in a workshop once where they asked us to draw out one of our life dreams. I sat for 5 minutes or more with absolutely nothing coming to me. Not a single dream. See growing up I had never aspired to anything. I guess I didn’t know what was possible and didn’t feel worthy, since I live mostly in fear. But I just sat there and eventually, something wonderful came to me.
Beach front property!
And I drew it. A house sitting high up on the beach, with mountains surrounding it on the back side and the ocean at front. That was where I wanted to live. And being at the beach on Saturday reminded me of this again. This that was my first ever and longest life dream.
And oddly enough today, this is still my most important life dream. I don’t need to own, I just need to live by the sea.
So when I awoke this morning with “del mar” on my lips, I felt new clarity about my new home, of what I want to feel with it. More clear than ever before. And I wrote down what I know I have put in store for myself, thanks to the contrast of the last few months.
Here is that list:
- Close by the ocean
- Close to everything I want to do, people I love and enjoy
- Free, happy and secure
- Peaceful, quiet and at home
- Love, joy and excitement at being there
- Clean, bright, open and sunny
- Long-term and stable
- Connected to the place and surroundings, like I belong to it and it to me
In writing all this down I was aware of something quite grand — that the writing down is simply and expression of my knowing what I have already created and put in motion and not the creating itself. It’s an affirmation of sorts, a summoning spell, noting my clarity and readiness to receive that which my contrast and challenges have already been asking for.
For this, I have deep appreciation and already feel the excitement of my new place.
Let it be so. This or something better!
I’m finding it sort of nice that it’s raining. Gives me a little extra time to reflect on things in a slightly different, more subtle and subdued energy than the typical sunny Los Angeles days.
I’ve spent a lot of time being lately. Just being. This week I’m not worrying about anything anymore. Not like last week where there was a slight undercurrent of angst or anxiousness at the beginning for a few days. This week, that’s not there.
Yesterday I had the glorious opportunity to sell about 1/3 of my CD collection. I had recently decided to sell the whole thing cause there’s no room for it in my 3 remaining bags. I still need to whittle down my files a bit more and find a efficient way to carry them with me. But all in due time.
Selling the CDs was fun. A dance friend came over and we previewed alot of the music on my iTunes, since I had imported all the CDs into my computer. It was fun to hear alot of my music again in a more deliberate way. I often listen to my iPod when I’m out on LA public transit, but not much at home. I think that comes from habits with my old computer where it was hard to run too many intensive programs at once. And also, I’m on WoW and skype alot these days. So not alot of space for listening to tunes as well.
So it was nice. So was the $90 for roughly 50 CDs!
Other than play time and fun, sleeping and eating, my thoughts are often of a curious, light-hearted nature concerning where I’ll be living next. I can feel how wonderful it is and that it’s an upgrade from where I am now. Definitely by the ocean. And I’m looking forward to living in Santa Monica.
My thoughts also turn to how my work in the world will unfold. I’ve recently come to the conclusion — with some guidance toward this notion — that I am my work in the world. I don’t DO my work in the world, I AM my work in the world. I still don’t completely get this, nor what to do with it exactly. But my other recent awareness about saying “I’m a joy and freedom seeker!” when people ask “What do you do?” seems to coincide with this quite well.
I was also very moved by the Love Project video from Starbucks, of the people from 150+ different countries all singing the amazing Beetles song “All You Need Is Love”. I felt powerfully compelled to travel the world channeling the message of love, freedom, joy and abundance.
I still don’t know how or when.
Thankfully, the hows, whos, whats, wheres, whens and whys are not distracting me from the moment. Dr. Peebles has made it very clear that right now we are only being given the very next step to consider, not the entire big picture — one marble in our hand, versus the whole bag.
So I continue to pursue joy, freedom and fun, while staying excitedly open to see what unfolds for me. I trust that all is being divinely cared for and managed.
There really IS something to that sond, “All You Need Is Love”. It really can be as simple as being in the moment, loving powerfully and allowing things to be easy. Easy. Easy Breezy.
I like that.
P.S. The rest of my CDs are still for sale for an average of $2 per CD. And also, I am still looking for a house sit starting Feb 1st.
Last year around this time, my entire life was focused on the study of Abundance — the intimate dynamics of Abundance, the essential nature of it, and why peeople like my dear friend Michele would say “The Universe is abundant and all my needs are met!”
Eventually, I came to learn that this powerful affirmation is not just wishful thinking, but that the Universe really is abundant. And not just abundant to the degree that I or anybody else may want, not just pertaining to money and dollars and finances. But the Universe is abundant in ALL ways. Any way that you can think of and ways that you even can’t fathom.
How else have I been able to “survive” and often thrive over the last year? What else did I fall back on when faced with only $0.75 to my name for weeks and eating out of the food bank lines? And sleeping in my car for weeks on end was only possible by intentionally seeking out abundance in other forms and ways.
This was so much my experience last year that this morning I received a validation that it is now completely ingrained into me. I was dreaming a rather poignant dream, the details of which I can’t even remember. But it was a happy dream. At one point I was talking with a 15 friend of mine from Australia — a guy I play my online video game with, to whom I have become a bit of a mentor in ways. Well as the dream ended I found myself saying to him, “Here is the most important lesson I can ever teach: the Universe is abundant; there is no lack, only Abundance — there is only Love.”
You see, one of the things I have begun sensing in the last many months, as I’ve studied, experienced and immersed myself in the truth of this statement (at least for me) is that the great Universal Abundance is really just an expression of Love.
I find it fascinating that all the times I decided to tap into an Abundance mindset, I did so through the Art of Appreciation. And yes, I would then find a much more abundant way of thinking and feeling and seeing the world. But I would also tap into the Universal Love.
I have heard it said by various sources that Appreciation and Love are of the same vibration and frequency. They are akin to one another. Well I would personally add a third to that….the feeling of Abundance.
But here’s what I’m really dropping into now…more than the study of Abundance: that there is only Love.
Dr. Peebles once told me this. He explain how from spirit’s perspective even fear is love. It’s holding a large amount of Love at arms length and letting a very small trickle flow in; but it is still Love. And Abraham-Hicks speaks of how the negative emotions are not an expression of lack of the others, but simply an expression of the resistance of who and what we really are.
We are Love. You……are Love and only Love.
I will be tapping into and channeling this more and more as I go forward. I can feel it. And I’ll tell you this much – it’s delicious and yummy and joyous and makes me want to do nothing but pursue joy and love and freedom and fun!